He has always gotten into these fits of rage and has tried to burn down the house with my mother inside when I was a child. He has seen psychiatrists and been in the mental ward at the hospital in the past, but most of the time he acts like a fairly normal person until he gets angry. This has caused my mother to divorce him, his mother to move out of her own house, where he lives now and he can no longer keep any friends.

He has always been verbally abusive and I can handle that by just waiting until he cools off. Recently we had got into an argument. The family dog had peed on the carpet while I was in the other room on the phone and he had yelled at me to go get the paper towels. I told him that he knew where they were and that he could handle it himself. He got the paper towels and soaked up the dog pee with the first one then came into the room I was in and threw it at me! I picked it up and put it in the garbage and would have left it at that except that he threw a second one at me and called me a b****. I picked that one up marched back over to him and threw it back yelling that he was a grown man and perfectly capable of cleaning it up on his own! He then walked back to where I was in the other room and hurled a box at me that could have been potentially harmful if he hadn’t missed. I dropped the phone and then told him I was leaving and he told me he didn’t care and threatened to strangle my boyfriend if he ever saw him again.
I was terrified because he has never tried to physically harm me before and I did not want to wait to get hit by something so I garbed my purse and left the house. After staying with my boyfriends family for a night and then my aunts where my grandmother lives currently I decided I couldn’t impose on anyone any more and came home.
I don’t have the money to move out now and have no where else to go. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed to be in this position.

He is still pissed off at me so I can’t try to reason with him because it just makes him escalate. My mother has tried to talk to him about it but he just gets upset so she has to leave.
I am trapped in my room and only feel safe to leave when he is asleep or outside the house. I have debated staying at a motel but I fear it would use up what little savings I have and I can sleep in my car but my boyfriend threatens to drop out of college if I do that and that is the only reason I live here is so he can finish his degree and then we can move because I’ll have enough saved up by the time he graduates.

Is there any way out?

Originally posted 2009-09-05 08:09:22. Republished by Blog Post Promoter