Here’s the story: I met my current boyfriend a year and a half ago when I was 18 and a virgin. I’m now 20 and just recently starting having sex with him regularly. I wasn’t ready until this point and he’s really well endowed so it took a while for it to get comfortable for me. He was very sweet, gentle, patient regarding this even tho he’s several yrs older and experienced. A few months into the relationship he started to show warning signs. He has done so many things to degrade my feelings of self-worth: spat in my face a few times(once on my bday), keyed my car terribly(including embarassing words),dumped a liter of coke in my car, dented it…called my mother and told her lies and exaggerations that I steal and do drugs. Also he spoke to her about our sex life. Omg now that I’m writing this it’s so obvious he’s ann as$h0le, making me worse for staying well, on with the problem. He’s super verbally abusive and lately he began physical abuse–he slapped my butt realllllly hard several times..
I must note that I have aspergers syndrome, making it hard to make friends. In fact, I’m a third yr university student and have basically no friends. However, i’ve been blessed with good looks so guys pursue me every now and then and right now this guy wants to hang out with me but I know all he wants is, ultimately, sex and I am sooo afraid of getting an STD. I know I can use protection but hpv can get thru condoms and I’m terrified of getting it. Thus, I’m usually scared and hesitant to see a boy again bc I am fearful of getting intimate and possibly stds(I go to a party skl so that seems likely…).
Even as I consider going out with someone new, just bc I want a friend :/, my abusive bf is txting me threats that he will hurt me if I cheat.
I know this is a long post and I did it on my cell so it may have errors…but pwlease

Originally posted 2009-09-03 06:09:26. Republished by Blog Post Promoter